First of all, I wanted to say sorry. Sorry that I have been nonexistent. But, I am back.
The reason as to why I have been gone, is I have strayed from the straight and narrow path. And very far at that. And the worst part is that is was so easy to stray, but getting back is no cake walk. But, it is amazing how in literally two days, everything is changed.
But, throughout my rough time, everyone in the church has been so great. No one has shunned me for not coming to church and everyone has still been so great.
There aren't any Sisters in my ward at the moment ( #collegetownprobs ) so I have been spending a lot of time with the Elders (Elder Rueda and Elder Fidel). They're fantastic. They are those of many who have helped get out of this slump. We like to go to lunch and dinner a lot, and have a ridiculous amount of inside jokes. But, isn't that the way it is with all Elders? I think so. :)
Some things that I have noticed and that has strengthened my testimony is the power of prayer, reading the scriptures, and church attendance.
Collectively, I have not been practicing each for a while, and I can tell you it has made life so much more difficult. It is so hard to deal with hardships in my life without the guidance and comfort of my Heavenly Father.
It is important to realize that it doesn't matter how I got off the straight and narrow path. It only matters that I got back on it, and how it happened. And that in the future I should not let my guard down because Satan is always out there to tempt us.
So, of course I had been meeting with the Elders at least once a week for our weekly meal. And they were helping me and sharing a great message with me. However, my heart wasn't in the right place. My heart wasn't willing to take in the message and let it change me. That was one of my biggest problems.
So, then one night I was at my worst. My depression was at its worst and things were not looking up for me. And I get a phone call. I didn't know the number so I answered. And it was Sister Myers.... I can't explain to you the feeling that rushed over me. I was trying so hard not to cry. Because I know for a fact that it was a sign from Heavenly Father that the church is what would get me out of such a dark place and in turn keep me out of such a dark place.
She asked me to meet with her the next morning. And so I did.
I told her of all the things that I had done to keep me away from a righteous life and all the things that had happened. The one thing she told me that really stuck out to me is, that regardless of all that had happened she could still feel the Spirit being within me just as strong as ever. ( Big change number one )
Then, my Relief Society President invited me to come to the General Women's Conference. So I went and the words that were said, it was as if they were speaking directly to me. It was great. It was such a good feeling to reconnect with all of these lovely ladies whom I am such good friends with.
The next day I went to church for the first time in weeks. It was so good. It was so uplifting and it made me feel so good. That evening there was a fireside that was conducted by President Skousen of our stake presidency. Yet again, it was as if he was speaking directly to me. It made me feel so good because I knew for fact that Heavenly Father was rooting for me to get on the straight and narrow path.
That pretty much brings us to today. I have been listening to a crazy amount of MoTab, reading a ton of scriptures, and praying. And I feel so good. Tonight I will even be going to institute, and I AM EXCITED! I know this is where I need to be. I need to be in this church. As to what I am supposed to do, I don't know. But I'm sure whatever it will be will be great!
I know that this church is so true. It is the root of true happiness and will bless anyone who comes in contact with it.
And I say all of these things in the name of Jesus Christ.
P.S. I can't wait for conference this weekend. Perfect timing, right?
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